Question. Why should I forgive and forget. I don't have no problem talkin to no one ever. Everyone that knows me, Mustafa, the real me, then yall know i dont talk behind anyone. Im always loud and clear to be heard, fear nuthin. But after all this how am i suppose to feel. Wether or not anything i was accused of was true, why would i bring myself down to a level of submission with those who so harshly lashed out at me when shit got hot? Understand something. We ARE all indeed muslims, and most of us are like brothers STILL. But somethings have happened that can't be forgotten. can't be erased. Don't think im sayin that im hurt by all this, no not at all. But some of yall people have lost all the respect that i've had fpr i for what ever thatz worth. And my trust. I aint sayin i aint never did no really wrong shit caus thatz not true. If i said that then id be tellin a lie. But thatz not to say that everyone involved in this and even all the people who have ANYTHING to say about have been wrong in a lot of things jus like me. Some of it i've witnessed, some of it i've heard about some of it i've assumed. Tell me people when do u ever hear Mustafa Zaid talkin bad about someone, puttin peoples business out on front street wether itz true or not. And everyone in the community loves or respects or loves and respect bro fareed, but interms of our current conflicts what is he gonna do?He can speak to us about how we should handle this with probably some of the best advice anyone close to us could give, but nothing can heal whats in our hearts and our minds unless we putt it in to motion our selves. Unless people decide for them selves and agree that certain things need to be done to mend all this then itz not ever gonna be mended and thatz a realization some of us need to come to instead of tryin to force people to see things their way all the time. As for me somethings can be fixed and some cant and thatz jus that. The people who im currently whilling to speak with and sqaush with or to what ever extent im gonna do things they no it. When those people get time they can come talk to me about or whatever it is they feel they need to do to tryin and solve some of this. But to others it may take time and like i said to some its jus wont ever be the same. And thatz jus real. 1

OH BOY! MY BAD I NEED TO MAKE A COME BACK.

Sometimes, I sit and I wonder. I think about all the stuff thatz been going on these pass couple of weeks. Its been very hard the think straight. People always tell me so many different things. I can't believe that I have people who used to be best friends beefin. Sometimes i think that ever since the very beginning i should have kept quiet, never said anything, never asked some of the question i asked. But when i think about it, I dont regret it. I mean after all I found out the truth. I feel like, now I know who my friends and my enemies are. I feel like I know who to trust and who not to trust. And from now on thats what itz gonna be. The way i act towards u, the way i treat u, thats how it is. You dont have to wonder anymore. I understand now that sometimes relationships will fall apart, but thats just a part of life and we have to deal with it. All those BUSTERZ and HATERZ out there, like I said before I cant stand you and the only thing you've done is make everything clear for me. And for those of you who love me and have stuck by my side (especially my big sisters all of you) I appreciate it and I love u right back. Thank u all for helping me grow up and making me so much stronger.